I fail at life, or just blogging.
Sorry guys, I haven’t posted in forever. Survived my first year of uni and I must say it feels good. Next year is going to be a huge start to something new so I am excited for that. Right now is about relaxing and spending time with family who I hardly get to see all year because of uni and maybe a bit of work on the side if I have too. I want to write awesome blog posts like Michelle (Zoey) and hopefully one day I will. Tonight isn’t the night to start though because I have an early start due to volunteer work tomorrow. So I have to run but I will write a nice blog tomorrow if I feel like I can after replying to my 3 epic roleplays when I get home from volunteer.
Dance the week away.
Assessments have been piling up and now they’ve hit me with full force this week. Performance is next Monday and I am practicing everyday, or being forced to at least. This is why you won’t get any updates from me for a few days, especially since I seem to just be sleeping through the hours of light I have spare. I’ll let you know by the weekend how everything is going but I can’t make any promises to include a decent update.
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Now playing: The Color Fred – Hate To See You Go
via FoxyTunes
Dawn is breaking.
Ha! I just wrote that without realizing how much that sounded like Breaking Dawn. Durr. Well I moved from blogger to wordpress today and I don’t know yet if it was the best decision but we’ll see. The deciding factor in the move was that I’d been using blogger for years and never once had a successful blog. You’d think it was the author’s fault but I am not one to blame myself until I’ve exhausted every other option of blame. So here I am, stick with me and wish me luck.
Tomorrow is Struth day at college, which means we have to dress ‘un-couth’ and have no manners. I think it is going to be an interesting day. Tuesday however, has been the biggest failure ever! I am in such a crazy mood that it sucks. I got my block trackies today and I signed up to be an open day tour guide and do the 10km walk for charity. I almost applied for a babysitting job because I feel I need to get out more. But it clashed with my class schedule in more ways than one so I let it pass.
And I just remembered that I didn’t do the rps I promised…. FAIL >.>
Sorry guys, but I am just going to have to deal with it tomorrow.
I made some gorgeous graphics today and I learnt what a Photoshop action was. Didn’t try them out but I will one day. My personal rule was to go to bed at eleven o’clock and this leaves me nine minutes to get changed and brush my teeth.
NIGHTS BLOG READERS!
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Now playing: Taking Back Sunday – My Blue Heaven
via FoxyTunes
Flip it!
It is amazing how doing a post like the one below can so easily make me feel immediately better. Unfortunately those feelings don’t last forever. What have I been doing the last few days? sleeping. Yes, I completely screwed up my sleeping pattern and ending up crashing at 9am and sleeping my entire sunny Friday away. Shame.
This has gotten to the point where I am beginning not to care, beginning not to think about the fact that there is no future for this. It is kinda weid, but I will get used to it.
I did something random today, went shopping with friends and spent an hour in the supermarket and all one of us bought was a packet of vitawheats XD Then we went to priceline and binged on beauty products. I got a new cleanser, toner and some ear cleaning buds I love so much. Yes, I am addicted to cleaning my ears. I have no desire to rp, I just can’t get into character at the moment… I like who I am don’t want to be anyone else.
The internet hates me today, couldn’t sign up for a new windows live id because apparently I had made enough already today. Err okay, I didn’t make any.. What the hell is going on? Doesn’t work through proxy servers either, FML. Speaking of FML I submitted a story, actually three stories to MLIA today and about an hour latter I looked for them and they had been deleted. My life isn’t average then, wtf is my life then? The Centrelink online services shut down 15 minutes after I tried to access it.. wtf srsly!
My McFlurry died in fridge. In the fridge you say, why? Because my freezer is too small. et I am a poor college student and instead of throwing it out I turned up the fridge, threw the lid and shoved the McFlurry in the freezer compartment.. should be done in an hour.
I have a maths assignment which involves divulging my entire 13 years of mathematics education into 1000 words, it seems easy but I haven’t even started yet so I say the assignment sucks. We worked on our crappy drama script today though, it is so good to finally be doing some work.
Off for now, time to shower.
Phenomenon
Do you ever feel like the world is spinning and everything is moving but you? Do you feel how weightless and tiny you really are?
I feel that way right now after being awake only 2 hours at 4pm. My dreams are insane and horrible, but hardly relevant to my dull, routine life. Alcohol is a bad thing and now I remember why I don’t drink it, especially while I feel so insignificant. I’ve learnt that no matter how long you’ve known some people it doesn’t change the fact that they are going to hide part of themself from you. You won’t realize until it is too late either.
Basically the hardest part of this world is acceptance, or maybe it is just the hardest part of my life. People need to accept me for who I am, which is NOT a bitch but a remarkable person with an impeccable talent for standing up for what she believes in. I’ve been losing too many friends… and gaining too many more. The number of friends you have doesn’t compare to the quality of a few really close relationships. I need strength in my friends, but I just don’t know how to get that.
I am still proud of myself and happy, eventhough I am having a shitass day. Tomorrow will be better when I remember to forget to care. I do have a wonderful group of friends and family that have been there for a while, yet its the others that don’t make me appreciate what I have.
I’ll blog again when I feel more optimistic.
