Phenomenon
Do you ever feel like the world is spinning and everything is moving but you? Do you feel how weightless and tiny you really are?
I feel that way right now after being awake only 2 hours at 4pm. My dreams are insane and horrible, but hardly relevant to my dull, routine life. Alcohol is a bad thing and now I remember why I don’t drink it, especially while I feel so insignificant. I’ve learnt that no matter how long you’ve known some people it doesn’t change the fact that they are going to hide part of themself from you. You won’t realize until it is too late either.
Basically the hardest part of this world is acceptance, or maybe it is just the hardest part of my life. People need to accept me for who I am, which is NOT a bitch but a remarkable person with an impeccable talent for standing up for what she believes in. I’ve been losing too many friends… and gaining too many more. The number of friends you have doesn’t compare to the quality of a few really close relationships. I need strength in my friends, but I just don’t know how to get that.
I am still proud of myself and happy, eventhough I am having a shitass day. Tomorrow will be better when I remember to forget to care. I do have a wonderful group of friends and family that have been there for a while, yet its the others that don’t make me appreciate what I have.
I’ll blog again when I feel more optimistic.
